Something about the usual help isn't fitting.
That's not stubbornness, and it isn't a character flaw. Pick whichever is closest. You don't have to be accurate.
I don't want to die. I need this to stop.I don't trust anyone.I tried getting help and it went badly.I'm embarrassed to tell anyone.I'm scared of the hospital.I don't deserve help.Nobody would understand.I've been here before.Words are hard.None of these — just pick for me
If your body may be in danger right now
Emergency medical help: 911 (US & Canada), 999 (UK), 112 (EU & many countries), 000 (Australia). If you'd rather talk: 988 (US call/text), 116 123 (UK & Ireland), findahelpline.com for your country. Nothing here asks you to use them. They're just here if you want them.