You asked for help, and it went badly.

That happened. It was real. Being wary now isn't paranoia — it's memory doing its job.

Nobody here is going to tell you that was a misunderstanding, or that you should try again tonight.

What's true is narrower than either extreme: that attempt went badly. Not every future one is that one. You don't have to decide which tonight.

For right now, the plan can be entirely made of things that don't involve any of those people or places.

“Nope.” is always allowed here. It's an answer, not a failure.

I've been through this a lot What I'm actually afraid of is the hospital A smaller kind of contact, if I ever want it Skip all of this and just sit with me Other reasons help isn't landing

If your body may be in danger right now

Emergency medical help: 911 (US & Canada), 999 (UK), 112 (EU & many countries), 000 (Australia). If you'd rather talk: 988 (US call/text), 116 123 (UK & Ireland), findahelpline.com for your country. Nothing here asks you to use them. They're just here if you want them.