I don't trust anyone.
Okay. Nothing here needs another person in it.
You're not going to be told to reach out to someone you trust. If that had been simple, you'd have done it already.
Distrust is usually earned. It's a thing you learned, not a thing that's wrong with you.
The door stays open, unlocked, and unmentioned. If you ever want it, it's there. Tonight it doesn't have to be part of the plan.
“Nope.” is always allowed here. It's an answer, not a failure.
If your body may be in danger right now
Emergency medical help: 911 (US & Canada), 999 (UK), 112 (EU & many countries), 000 (Australia). If you'd rather talk: 988 (US call/text), 116 123 (UK & Ireland), findahelpline.com for your country. Nothing here asks you to use them. They're just here if you want them.